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| How does it feel? To be on your own. A complete unknown. Like a rolling stone |
[28 Dec 2006|12:32pm] |
| How does it feel? To be on your own. A complete unknown. Like a rolling stone | So the past couple days have rocked. Last night was the christmas party for work. We all went to the bowling alley. It was super fun. and all im gonna say about that is Cynthia's "happy drink" made it all soooo much better. Just as we were getting done with bowling my dad and Liz showed up. There visitng for a couple days. Then we all went to dinner at Uno's, and Amanda came with us. OHHHHH we wrote JT Tree. Well like half of it. Its funny as hell too. I'll post that once its finished. I also have two songs im pretty much done with but I dont have the courage to post them up here yet. Anyways. I've learned quite a few things about myself recently. Some are good, some are bad". But either way, its still a good thing in my opinion. Because realizing the bad aspects of myself lets me know what I need to work on in my life. So. Theres a fucking hurricane outside. I thought i'd just let everyone know that. "So fragile and thin, standing trial for your sins, holding onto your self the best you can..." |
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| She's shaking in the car with the gun in her hand... |
[28 Oct 2006|02:35am] |
so this evening was interesting. and since myspace is being a whore, I have to post here. So LOTS of drunkeness occured. LOTS of chain smoking. Why? because we wanted to party...and while im on vacation I GOT INTO A FUCKING CAR ACCIDENT. My front bummper cover is in Peters truck. fucking ridiculous. Sooo. to entertain you all, here is a teaser. It was a halloween party, hence the dresssing up.
wasted fun....we took entirely tooo many pictures. MORE to come. Enjoy. <3
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| Leftovers and board games |
[20 Oct 2006|09:48pm] |
So I wrote my first song. Its definatly a work in progress. But im really proud of myself that I did it. So here it is. Tell me what you all think. Honest opinions only!
I understand people need time to work out their own things
But does that mean, that you have to tear down those walls?
Those old walls that took so long too build.
Do you know what its like, to be dropped like your nothing?
To be left here to wonder why
What went wrong. And how you should feel
I feel like an old board game
That you just bring out on a rainy day
Something with little meaning, but brings entertainment on a boring day
Well I'm sorry to say, but I'm not your candy land anymore
And as I look back
I think about all the things we did, and all those things you said
The late nights, the long drives home
Watching those yellow tags in the road became my therapy
How I cherish those Wallace and gromit nights, and those windy roads
Did you mean it when you said
That these past six months had been the best
And that you were glad you had me in your life?
You say dinner is for friends, but leftovers is love
Well welcome to a life of dinners
And far less left-over mornings
I feel like an old board game
That you just bring out on a rainy day
Something with little meaning, but brings entertainment on a boring day
Well I'm sorry to say, but I'm not your candy land anymore
Picking myself off the ground
Putting back the pieces of my heart
But desperately hanging onto the hope
…of you
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| sorry for the long entry, but its important |
[20 Sep 2006|09:15pm] |
Livejournal entry
So I could be totally over thinking this, but I think Nick is breaking up with me. Or something is wrong, with his family or something, and he wont talk to me.
So Sunday, everything was fine. I went over to his house, and everything was perfect. Monday we didn’t really get to see each other, and he seemed a little distracted, but nothing major. Mondays are big school days for him, so hes always busy. No big deal. So Monday night came around, and he sent me a text saying he had just gotten off of work and that he was tired and going to bed. He also said he wished this day would “fucking end”. Again, no big deal. But then I got nothing from him yesterday. I sent him a text about postcards, hoping to cheer him up, because we all know how much he loves postcards, and I get nothing. Figuring he didn’t get the message, I sent him one asking him how he was. I get . “Alright, you?”. I reply, and again, no response. So I sent him a message saying I was going to bed and I was worried about him, and (hoping for some indication that everything was fine I get), “Alright.goodnight”. So after this morning after like 2 text messages he says that he wont be able to call me today because hes busy. I get that. Totally. I JUST WANT SOME SORT OF MESSAGE SAYING EVERYTHING IS OKAY. Or not okay, just some message!!!! I’ve asked him if everything was okay like 4 times now, and he has ignored every single one of them. I totally get if he is busy, or if something is wrong and he just doesn’t want to talk to me, that’s fine too. BUT TELL ME. All I need is some sort of indication whether or not he’s okay. But of course I got nothing. Because the last time I had a boyfriend do this to me, he broke up with me. And even if Nick and I are really busy we’ll call each other and just talk for like 2 minutes or so. Just to say hi. So I sent him a text message saying that when he got out of class @ 3.15 I’d be free if he felt like talking. So far its 4pm and haven’t heard anything. But I’m not going to call him, I’ve made much effort to contact him, and its quite apparent he doesn’t want to talk with me, so I’ll wait for him to call me. And I guess if he doesn’t call me by next Tuesday, when I get home, I’ll call his mom to see what’s up.
But I hope to god I don’t have to wait that long because its killing me not knowing what’s going on. Whether or not he still wants to be with me, or maybe a close family member is sick, or whatever. And it probably doesn’t help that all I have been doing on the trip is watching televsion shows with tons of breakups. Like seriously, are they trying to kill me? I think Rory and Logan broke up like 4 times in like 6 episodes. Crazyness.
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[03 Sep 2006|11:51pm] |
I'm still in shock.
SYDNEY, Australia (CNN) -- Steve Irwin, the Australian TV presenter known as the "Crocodile Hunter," has died after being stung in a marine accident off Australia's north coast.
Australian media reports say Irwin was diving in waters off Port Douglas, north of Cairns, when the incident happened on Monday morning.
Irwin, 44 was killed by a stingray barb that went through his chest, according to Cairns police sources. Irwin was filming an underwater documentary at the time.
Ambulance officers confirmed they attended a reef fatality Monday morning off Port Douglas, according to Australian media.
Queensland Police Services also confirmed Irwin's death and said his family had been notified. Irwin was director of the Australian Zoo in Queensland.
He is survived by his American-born wife Terri and their two children, Bindi Sue, born 1998, and Robert (Bob), born December 2003.
Irwin became a popular figure on Australian and international television through Irwin's close handling of wildlife, most notably the capture and relocation of crocodiles.
Irwin's enthusiastic approach to nature conservation and the environment won him a global following. He was known for his exuberance and use of the catch phrase "Crikey!"
But his image suffered a setback in January 2004 when he held his then 1-month-old baby Bob while feeding a crocodile at his Australian zoo. (Full story)
In a statement released to Australian media, Foreign Minister Alexander Downer expressed his sorrow and said that he was fond of Irwin and was very appreciative of all the work he had done in promoting Australia overseas.
In 2003, Irwin spoke to the Australian Broadcasting Corp.'s Australian Story television program about how he was perceived in his home country.
"When I see what's happened all over the world, they're looking at me as this very popular, wildlife warrior Australian bloke," he said, the ABC reported.
"And yet back here in my own country, some people find me a little bit embarrassing. "You know, there's this... they kind of cringe, you know, 'cause I'm coming out with 'Crikey' and 'Look at this beauty'."
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| If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied... |
[01 Sep 2006|12:28am] |
So it seems that I havent updated in awhile. So for those of you that care, here is my update.
Chuck Klosterman is a fucking god. I am now convinced of this. His writing is hilarious and just all around AMAZING.
I have been reading far too much.
Our backyard actually looks like a backyard. Its sooo nice. I will soon be living out there because its just so damn peaceful.
I went to my first pop concert last night. American Idol. My mom wanted me to go with her so I went. Lots of screaming 8 year old years. and then a giant pop tart tried to take my chicken. and then wanted to hug me. I will never be the same.
School is going well. Very well actually.
Me and Nicks six months is today. So thats pretty cool.
Sat im going to TWO shows. NFG in oakland and then CUTE is SF.
.......I want to get drunk this weekend. Anyone care to join me?
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| NO MORE BRACES!! |
[14 Aug 2006|02:16pm] |
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LOOKIE LOOKIE!! No MORE BRACES!!!
Excellent photography by: Amanda
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[08 Aug 2006|12:28am] |
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Okay so I spent the night at nicks house last night. His mom and sister were gone so it was just the two of us. I was so tired though. We started off watching the rock.Hella good movie. The we moved to his room to go to bed. I ended up in my underwear and short shorts...nothng else. And he was in his boxers. I was so suprised how comfortable I was with him. I always imagined it would be kinda awkward, but here I was lying topless totally and completly comfortable about it. Lying their with him was so perfect. It was so perfect it scared me. This has opened up new doors for me. I wanted so bad to explore his body but for some reason I hold back. and I dont know why. I just dont know what to do, or how to at and I kinda freak out. Its uncharted territory for me. " " Another thing is we finally said I love you to each other aloud. I mean he first said it to me a couple weeks ago, but last night was the first time we had spoken it. Really made it seem more real. He is just so amazing. So perfect. I never want to stop feeling like this.
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[30 Jul 2006|09:11am] |
Well once again, right before a trip, my phone decided to be an asshole.
Now instead of not being able to press some keys, it adds things. Like that is now thyatj. and its fucking annoying!
So if this thing officially dies, call me @ 925-628-9150
thanks!
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| Warped, & other stuff. |
[14 Jul 2006|06:55pm] |
SO. I've decided im moving to Santa Barbara. In like a year or so. I've always wanted to live there. Ever since I was a little girl, and everytime i'm there it just re-confirms my feelings for that place. So who wants to go with me?
Anyways, warped was yesterday. I FINALLY got to see Less Than Jake. It meant sooo much to me. It was unreal after 5 years I finally got to see them play. And the only letdown was the fact they didnt play anything from Hello Rockview. But they realesed that album in 1998, so I didnt really expect it. I also got to see Anti-flag, The Academy is..., The Living End, Amber Pacific, and a bunch of others. It was tons of fun!
So lately, i've been feeling like im wandering around in the dark. Relationship wise that is. It sucks not knowing anything about anything.
Shit, I am being yelled. I will continue this later tonight.
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| lots to update on |
[10 Jul 2006|08:28pm] |
So I have lots to update on. Lets start with this weekends crisis. Were at dinner, (in ventura), and I have a voicemail from Bryon. All it says is that hes on the way to the emergency vet. I panic. Im thinking Trader, howie, dan....someone is dying. Turns out its Flirt. She's only 4 years old so she was the last one on my list of dogs that could be sick. Turns out our water softner malfunctioned and ALL of our dogs have been drinking SALT WATER for 3 fucking days. She had high levels of sodium and ceasered for several hours and eventually had to be put down. We were SOOOOO lucky we didnt lose all of our dogs.
and my dad calls today. Turns out EVERYONE and their freaking mother is going to oregon with us. Normally we stay at Aunt Jeanies house with everyone. And its just me and my dad. And thats great. Well this year brian, micheal, his gf, and liz were gonna come. That was a cool change. But NOW they are coming and including my step sister jenny, her husband, and their THREE kids. I dont do well in large groups. I dont do well with more than one kid. So I went from being pretty excited to dreading it. Brittany: if your reading this, save me!!! lets go out one night and go to a punk show or something. Though however, it will be nice to see everyone.
Oh, I know this is kinda early, but I want to do a road trip for my birthday. Lets go somewhere. Like SB, or SC or something. We can all stay in a cheap hotel room or something.
Well im in class so I better like, listen to the professor, or something like that.
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| Mission Curcuit photos |
[08 Jun 2006|07:06pm] |
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Boston the Briard aka "Mr. B", asleep on my bed.
The Beautiful california sunset. Pomona, CA
Our set up at the Mission Curcuit, Pomona, Ca.
"GQ" the Port. Water Dog
LOOTTTTSS more photos to come. Hope this was a little teaser!
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[11 May 2006|10:57pm] |
We've been recieving tons of sympathy emails and phone calls from many people in the dog show world....Micheala, who is one of our dear friends and knew Hobbs quite well posted this to the online cocker spaniel group. I was really touched by her words so i'd like to re-post it.
I have shed more than a few tears today after hearing that Hobbs is
gone. He
had no greater fan than I. I've thought a lot about him and would
like to
share a few of those reflections. I found that it hard to think of
Hobbs
without seeing Marie there too. What a team these two were. I can see
them
flying about the ring...Hobbs with his lovely, correct movement and
amazing
reach..Marie with the same smooth stride, reaching to keep up with
him. He was
proud, that boy, and surely the personification of showmanship and
competitive
spirit..and Marie was there to match him in those ways too. He gave
her
everything she asked of him and anyone that knows Marie, knows that
was a lot. He
was funny, this Hobbs, a spirited and oh so intelligent minx that
never
forgot anyone or anything. I loved watching how much Marie just
enjoyed being with
that dog and how much he responded to her. Does anyone remember the
way he
would head for the number 1 or winners spot in the ring? He knew
that's where
he belonged. He never gave up in the ring or out of it...there were
tears the
last time I saw him in veteran's still showing the same heart and
spirit
as he did as a babe. They were a team...that fiery little tri color
Cocker and
his fiery red headed partner. I don't think we'll see anything just
like
this again and I am so sad.
Michaela
Bodega Cockers
Sebastopol, CA
If this doesnt make you cry I dont know what will. And those words are oh so true
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[11 May 2006|10:56pm] |
In memory of Ch. Jo-bees Hobbin Nobbin
So at about midnight the phone rang. and then I just knew. And then sure enough I hear my mom crying saying that he died.
This has been a total shock. Took us COMPLETLY by suprise. This dog was soo loved. He had great parents....Robert and Rita Lewis....and he was part of our family, he lived with us the majority of his life. He meant the world to my mom. When you show a dog for 4 years every weekend like they did I believe you produce a bond like no other and thats certantly what happend with them. Our phone has been ringing off the hook. It just shows how many people adored this dog. So im gonna list all of his quirky things, and all of his little habits to remember him by.
* He was obsessed with toys. You would give him one toy and in a matter of 5 minutes all you saw was a bunch of white fuzz all over his exercise pen.
* He also had a love of remotes. Everytime he was either at Robert and Rita's house or in our house we had to get a new remote.
*He also HATED Dan. It was the funniest thing. Everytime he saw him he'd growl and spike up his hair....and we never quite figured out why he hated him so much.
*At his retirement party at the San Jose dog show he had cake smeared all across his face. He loved cake too!
* He was very protective. I remember one time in a hotel he wanted the pillows on the bed. And they happend to be Michelas pillows. She tried to take them back....so he dug up all three pillows laid on them and growled (while wagging his tail of course) so she couldnt get them. Which resulted with her sleeping the night on the bed pillow-less.
*He LOVED the show ring. He put his heart and soul into it everytime. Some dogs will show...and they do it well. This dog LIVED for it. I've never in my entire life seen a dog that loved the show ring so much.
I could go on for hours but i'd probably run out of space. But I guess now its time to look forward. We have 2 of his 4 month old pups in our kitchen. And one is already showing signs of being just like Hobbs. Developing the same quirky habits.
This dog will FOREVER be missed
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[11 May 2006|10:55pm] |
Emergency vet and other dog related things
So tonight has been eventful.
Amber came over....then Beverly called. For those of you who dont know Bev, her and Martin are my handlers. I work for them at dog shows. They are part of my dog show family. So since they love me and miss me they want to fly me out to work for them. So im going to be doing a couple of curcuits with them.Its kinda of like going on tour for those of you that are in bands. A few hours after my last final I fly out to ontario...then we hit 5 shows in L.A...(we call it the Mission Curcuit)
Then I believe we are going to Reno, Iowa, Illinois, and bev mentioned somewhere else but I forget what else. This is all in a two to three week period. And they reallllly want me to work the Montanta curcuit...which is 8 days, 3 different locations...but I can't since I dont want to be gone that long and I have school. So I leave after my finals and I return right before school starts again.
The plus side in this is I will make a lot of money and I LOOOOVVVEE Bev and Martin. They are one of the few good dog show people.
So on to the second part of the night. Amber and I are just chilling in my room when my mom comes in saying Hobbs has a fever of 105 and shes rushing him to the vet. Hobbs has been with us for his whole life..he's ten. He was the top winnning cocker spaniel in the country in 1996 and 1997....big winning dog. and my moms world. and at a fever of 105 he probably should have been dead. So for the last few hours we've been at the emergency vet....no fun. But ya I will keep you posted on the whole Hobbs ordeal..
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| Summer/Fall classes |
[02 May 2006|11:16pm] |
So. I've picked out my classes for next semester. and the summer. They are as follows:
Summer:
Sociology. Brentwood campus. Taking it with Missie. Three days a week.
Fall:
English 21. Adv english. Brentwood Campus.
Math 30. Intermediate Algebra.Brentwood Campus.
Weather and Climate. LPC. Livermore.
Oceanography. LPC, Livermore.
Yup. Thats it. I'm taking night classes. Cara doesn't do mornings. I'm very excited. And while were on the subject of school....I got an A on my last astronomy test! Heck yes!!
<3
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[30 Apr 2006|11:14pm] |
Okay so im going through my notes section of my phone and explaining/writing about the random things I put in there. I always type things in their so I can blog them later on and then never do.
1."Crazy map guy on the freeway". Well. I dont even remember where we were going, or who I was with but their was this crazy guy on the freeway that had a map. And instead of like having a mapquest map or something he had this huge ass map and it covered the whole dashboard and he was in front of us and he kept swerving in and out of his lane because hes trying to look at his map thats the size of a small state and the window is open and its like flapping around everywhere. fucking. hilarious.
2. "Fight war not wars. Destroy power, not people". -This was just a quote that I liked.
3. "Its just bologna in bar form!"-Johnny at the picnic eating a raw hot dog.
4. "Like majorly."-I honestly dont know why I wrote this, or what its about. But I typed in in on 4/9/06
5. "Note to self: don't wear sandals in the rain and don't bring your dog in dennys."-Road trip on the way home from ventura.
6."One row down from E." - Where Nick and I parked at Marine World.
and ya....the rest of the stuff on their are just bands to download. Yay. Now I can delete them all.
<333
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[30 Apr 2006|11:14pm] |
So...picnicing with friends equals a hella good time.
Me, nick, johnny, michi and megan all went to the old vasco road watershed thing and had a picnic. It was very pretty up there.
Note to self: next time you want to bbq...bring something to bbq with. and no the cigaratte lighter in the car doesn't count.
Pretty much the highlights of the day were michi getting attacked by a bunch of angry plates, johnny disappearing into the hills and falling into the water, and of course our lack of planning skills leading to everyone fighting over the turkey because we couldnt make the hot dogs haha.
the best part of the day was the brownies. I certaintaly couldnt leave out the brownies. yummm....:)
"It's just boloni in bar form!!"
So Nick and I spent the night at Crystals last night. Apparently I sleep weird. And Nicks mom went crazy and got it into her head that all we were doing last night was having sex. So apparently Nick isnt allowed to stay over anymore...:(
I will update more later.
<3
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